No news is good news

So I went for my six month check up (a mammogram). I haven't heard anything back so I'm assuming it's good news. My doctor said no news is good news.

It's weird because I used to think there would come a point where someone would tell me "congratulations! your cancer free!" But no one ever really says that. All you get is a "well we haven't found any, so you're probably in the clear."

 You might think that not finding any is the same as being cancer free, but it's not. It's different because in the back of your mind you have this little voice of doubt saying "they just haven't found it yet! It's in there though, just waiting to pop up!"
The longer I go on, the quieter the voice gets though. That's encouraging. I've heard other people say that they never think about it once their treatments are done, but I don't think that's true for me. I do think though that in time I won't think about it.
I imagine it's the same sort of thing for other people who have had health scares...heart attacks, strokes...whatever. It takes time to wear away the worry.

Kung-Fu has been helping though. It feels good to be getting my body back into shape. It's been pretty difficult, but I'm able to do push-ups again and run again and do forms. It's hard to think that 6 months ago I could't even make it up a flight of stairs without needing to rest. Just goes to show you how quickly life can change for the better too.
Lord willing I'll be on the upward swing for a while yet!