Nothing to write about?

I'm finding it hard to find something to write about.
Normally, I would just not bother writing, but because of the challenge I'm having with my brother I can't (unless I want to lose), not to mention the UBBT.
This is partly why I previously wrote very rarely. Always in my mind was the idea that others would be reading this and judging my character based upon it. The thought always scared me and I therefore tried only to write what I thought would be meaningful and sound intellegant.

I suppose at a certain point in your journey, you have to let go of that fear. You can't always let the opinions of others guide your actions; sometimes you just have to be yourself.
It takes courage to do so however, and that is something I need to work on.

That's what I learned tonight, while writing about having nothing to write about, sometimes you just have to be yourself and love it.

Blessings

I had a lot of fun today putting together a bokken sequence with Mike. We got it to flow pretty well and I always have fun working with him. It's a real blessing to be able to share our Kung-Fu with each other. Not many people get that opportunity.

Today I learned that to be able to share what you love with the person you spend your life with is one of the greatest things anyone could ever hope for, especially if they know how to cook!

Doubt and Belief

Tonight I watched the movie Doubt.
It wasn't bad, not great, but enough to get me thinking.
The story is about a nun at a school who suspects the priest of certain wrong-doings. She has no proof, but is certain that the safety of particular students is at risk.
Even if the priest is innocent, she can't risk the possibility of his guilt.

I think this is true when it comes to a lot of things; sometimes people believe things just because they are afraid they might be true. I think this is especially the case when it comes to religion.
I don't disagree with the nun's diligence, children's safety is paramount in this case, and I don't know if she actually believed it 100%, but it got me thinking. Believing in something because you are afraid it might be true isn't truly believing at all. I think some people kid themselves, thinking fear is belief. It isn't.
In order to truly believe something, you need to have tested it, tried it and weighed against other possibilities; you need to be sure it is the truth, not just a possibility.

Tonight I learned to question my beliefs, to make sure I'm am not simply following fear.
To truly believe something, you need to ask questions.
Belief takes work.

Interuption in my chi

Not feeling well...
My chi was flowing pretty good in my hands, but my head feels like a block of lead-nothing gets through. Tomorrow I'll play around some more and see if I can help unclog my chi.

Tonight I learned that push-ups are a lot harder when your chi isn't cooperating. This lesson showed me that everything is better when you have your chi involed, punches, etc. It is the oohmph factor and gives you your power.

Sickness...NNNNOOOO!!!!

I think I'm getting a touch of illness.
When my sister and her roommate visited this past weekend, Emily (the roommate) had bronchitis so I'm a tad concerned.
I'm going to guzzle some grapefruit juice (universal cure for all ills), finish my UBBT workout for the night and hit the sack. A good night's sleep will give me a boost.

Today I learned that illness can sure slow you down and that one should be thankful for one's health. You shouldn't take your health for granted.